i have to get this off of my chest.
it doesn't mean i have any right to feel this way..
fuck you for getting a stupid girlfriend and never talking to me anymore.
i hate her even if she makes you happy, even more if she makes you happy actually. i can't say i don't love you anymore because obviously i do, but you don't live here, you don't have the time to talk to me.
so i'm going to move on.
but don't expect me to be yours when you get back anymore.
thats incredibly hard for me to say, but i don't want my heart to be in fucking new york anymore. its too far away. and you can't have it back.
i know i'm a hypocrite. i have a new girlfriend too that i like A LOT.. but i've always been a jealous person.

hehe. that makes my life sound slightly sad but truly my life is running pretty smoothly and happily as usual.